It’s hard to believe that it’s not March 17th, 2023, anymore. It’s hard to believe it’s no longer the first time we saw the countdown on the screen, heard “Oh hi!” echo through the stadium, or got excited about the surprise songs. It’s even harder to believe that today is December 8th, and the Eras Tour is coming to an end tonight.
I can’t even put into words how I feel right now. It’s a whirlwind of emotions—grief, happiness, shock, denial—a bittersweet rollercoaster. As the end of the Eras Tour approaches every single second, I just want to take a moment to appreciate Taylor and her entire crew for creating this massive, groundbreaking tour, which Taylor herself said has been in the works for three whole years.
Before this chapter officially closes, I want to share a few things that have happened to me as a Swiftie over the past few days (aka my poor Mastermind scores), a new theory, and a heartfelt letter to this unforgettable era of my life.
Eras Tour Movie 2.0 / Documentary?
It’s official: something film-related is definitely in the works. Ever since last August in London, cameras have been consistently surrounding Taylor, her crew, and the crowd. Over the past two nights in Vancouver, the filming has ramped up significantly, with cameras even onstage with Taylor and her wearing the exact same outfits for two shows in a row.
While it’s still unclear whether filming will continue during N3, I think that we can be sure that whatever they’ve been working on isn’t just for the archives.
My Masterminds Are Getting Progressively Worse
Every single night before a show, I do my Mastermind game (an outfit-guessing game on an app called Swift Alert) and think to myself, “This is it. I’m going to get it right this time.”
When it came to Vancouver, I was so confident. I truly believed it was going to be an easy city to predict. These weren’t just going to be three random shows with random outfits—they were closure shows, full of meaning. I was sure I’d finally crack the code.
And then Vancouver N1 happened:
Embarrassing, isn’t it? Well, N2 took things to a whole new level of humiliation.
Yes, the only outfit I got right was the reputation bodysuit. Taylor repeated every single outfit from Vancouver N1—the ones I obviously wasn’t going to guess. At this point, it’s not even embarrassing; it’s just funny.
If Taylor repeats the outfits from N1 again, my score won’t look much better than it did last night. But I hope she’ll actually give us a closure show—and maybe stop failing me on purpose.
It’s Over
I can’t fathom the fact that the Eras Tour is ending tonight. It’s surreal to think about where I was when this tour was first announced and when it began. I just enrolled in a new school, figuring things out, and growing up while learning so much along the way. I had to come to terms with maturing, with understanding who I wanted to become—and through all of that, this tour became my happy place.
The Eras Tour was the place where I could just be a girl. It was my dream escape, my secret garden, and the lunar valleys in my mind. It’s been such a significant part of my journey. I experienced pure joy when I got tickets to a show, the thrill of intense planning, and the amount of excitement leading up to it. Of course, it all came crashing down when my show was canceled due to terror threats. That was one of the most heartbreaking moments of my life. The Eras Tour had been my happy place, and suddenly, even thinking about it became terrifying. But that experience taught me how to cope with loss.
Accepting that you’ve truly lost something so meaningful, something that was your dream for years, was incredibly hard. But eventually, I realized I had to focus on what matters most: I wasn’t murdered by a terrorist gang! Yes, not attending the Eras Tour on August 10, 2024, was the greatest disappointment of my life so far. But I know that in 20 or 30 years, when I look back on this time, I’ll feel grateful. Grateful that I got to experience some of the Eras magic. Grateful that I was part of something most people never got to witness.
I hated Taylor for a moment, but eventually, I learned to love her again. To be honest, I never truly stopped loving her because I’m not capable of that. She’s been such a major part of my life over the last few years, and the Eras Tour has played a huge role in shaping my journey.
Some of my best memories from this summer are Eras-related—watching grainy livestreams, obsessively making bracelets, sobbing over surprise songs. Soon, though, I won’t be making any new Eras Tour memories, and that realization is bittersweet.
It’s really over. For good. There’s no new leg coming, no addition to the show, no more surprises. It’s going to end. As hard as it is to process, I can’t be thankful enough for getting to be a part of this, to love Taylor, and to experience the Eras era as it was. And if you were there, you know it was truly the best. ❤️🩹
nooooo 😭😭😭😭😭 i never got to go 😢😢 but maybe since it’s the last show she’ll do something extra special?? like announce rep tv?! lol im keeping my hopes 🆙
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